My concept of moving on involves ellipses, pauses, silences and shushes.
You distant yourself for as long as you're processing. You stop talking about it, although over and over, you have sadness whirling inside your head. The head, not the heart. Because in me, it is the heart that does a lot of talking. And my mind has finally commanded my heart to shut up.
The process ends - it should - without bearing grudges. There is no self-respect in that. There are far more things in this life that will earn that now-vacant space in your heart.
I will always remember that every big thing that makes me proud is not seen in the same happy meal by other people. People will miss the point because they have other things that they think mean more. In the same way, whatever that means more to them may not necessarily be true for me. So kids like me learn to let go.
It is not because we think they are right. Not necessarily. But there is something that they should understand. There is a timeline in our head when we want to pursue something. We let the heart raise the topic, on and on for a certain period. And then when that timeline happens, we just tell ourselves to quit. The mind reprimands and says, "You are becoming foolish. This conversation is now stale."
Kids like me become bigger people when we put their ideas, feelings and wants before ourselves. Our love becomes a tool for sacrificing. Once we let them know that it is okay, and that we will forget about it, we begin the process of moving on - without their company.
There is resilience in understanding what we cannot understand.
Some of us write posts like this to cope. It helps us not to mention it anymore in any conversation at any time.
You distant yourself for as long as you're processing. You stop talking about it, although over and over, you have sadness whirling inside your head. The head, not the heart. Because in me, it is the heart that does a lot of talking. And my mind has finally commanded my heart to shut up.
The process ends - it should - without bearing grudges. There is no self-respect in that. There are far more things in this life that will earn that now-vacant space in your heart.
I will always remember that every big thing that makes me proud is not seen in the same happy meal by other people. People will miss the point because they have other things that they think mean more. In the same way, whatever that means more to them may not necessarily be true for me. So kids like me learn to let go.
It is not because we think they are right. Not necessarily. But there is something that they should understand. There is a timeline in our head when we want to pursue something. We let the heart raise the topic, on and on for a certain period. And then when that timeline happens, we just tell ourselves to quit. The mind reprimands and says, "You are becoming foolish. This conversation is now stale."
Kids like me become bigger people when we put their ideas, feelings and wants before ourselves. Our love becomes a tool for sacrificing. Once we let them know that it is okay, and that we will forget about it, we begin the process of moving on - without their company.
There is resilience in understanding what we cannot understand.
Some of us write posts like this to cope. It helps us not to mention it anymore in any conversation at any time.
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